everything happens for a reason. so even when things arent going well, i always tell myself everything happens for a reason, and maybe i'll only see the benefits of it in the future.
too many mistakes have been made such that im sinking into my own misery which is so totally unnecessary and to put it bluntly i always dig my own grave. why do i always get myself involved in situations like that knowing that it's always an uphill task to get out of it and i involve myself so much such that it's irritatingly sick. all i wanna do this year is concentrate a 100 percent on doing well for my As cos that's my main aim right now. but what's disturbing is there are hell so many distractions around and things which i cant get off my mind and that's what's making me feel so frustrated.
you know all you want to do is just clear your mind on everything and put in all your effort in your school work. i know i sound like a nerd but im slowly feeling the stress of J2 and i so wanna do well so badly. i dont wanna collect my results next year and start crying and thinking about all the could haves and should haves and wallow in self pity all these just because i didnt put in enough effort and the amount of UNNECESSARY and UNIMPORTANT distractions.
all i have to do, is set out my priorities straight and tell myself life is so much greener on the other side so quit lamenting and sinking deeper and deeper into the whole pathetic story of my miserable life. get a grip of yourself cos im just making a mountain out of a molehill. and this is the CRUCIAL year.
on another note, the weekend has been fun with all the babes at balcony and kandibar and thank you jen for helping my kope the nice green crocodile from kandibar but i think it needs emergency surgery on its belly. there are two slits. ):
so yes, i dunno why it always takes damn long for me to get a grip of myself and move on and remove all USELESS, UNNECESSARY and UNIMPORTANT distractions and start concentrating on studies studies studies! well i have to and i cant afford to screw up. i hell dont wanna regret anything. although i already do.